Song: Existence

Artist: Decades

I just announced that my band has called it quits today, and I’m extremely sad about it. Here’s our demo, for anyone that cares to listen…

Lyrics:

“I lift my head in shame, & remembrance

Of an existence that’s long been forgotten.

Lost in the pages of history, a life that’s been taken for granted.

Is this really who I’ve come to be? I cannot forgive this.

As I turn the pages I’m embraced by an awkward sense of unfulfillment.

The tears start trailing as I gaze upon a life I once called my own. 

My own!

I shut this book with haste and fear of what I’m not ready to face.

It’s overwhelming, to be so afraid of the person you used to be.

I walk and I try to convince myself, “I can pull through this” but I can’t…

I wander through a forest, where life is so full,

Through the bushes, passed the trees.

I see, I see now, this existence before me.

I fall to my knees, face buried in palms of a man,

Too afraid to embrace the life with which was once his own.

(His own) Doubts, that covered an already perfect paradise producing…

The perfect storm of inner struggle.

Light pours in, and I’m greeted by an old friend.

The feeling of being content.

I lift up my head, standing upright,

I make my way to the home I thought I never knew.

But it’s always been there, it was always just right there!

I was simply blinded by the flaws of my existence.

With the past held in my hands, I face my demons,

With the utmost courage!

But as I turn the pages, it all comes back to me;

I am not the person that I used to be.

And it’s tearing me apart, more and more as the pages turn.

I begin to lose my focuse,

I fall back…

The warmth is gone and the light is fleeting.

The story retold, I regress and I’m lost in the pages.

Pages, we’re always lost in the pages of existence.”